i'm a single cell on a serpent's tongue

blogged out - either love me or leave me alone

Fri, 25 Jul 2008 13:02:00 -0400

hi all

this is my official LAST POST on this here blog. check out the earthworm press and projects website for further anythings.

http://earthwormpressandprojects.blogspot.com/

i’m out w/ a public service announcement below…

dance!

sara

Video

Fri, 25 Jul 2008 13:00:39 -0400

EVERYTHING’S INCLUDED

Wed, 02 Jul 2008 01:03:55 -0400

trout

lobster

prunes

i’d like it

i’d like it steamed

grilled

boiled

baked

fried

i’d like some

i’d like some beef

a beef steak

some roast beef

a veal cutlet

lamb

a pork chop

roast pork

ham

chicken

roast chicken

duck

how do you like your meat

rare

medium

well done

what vegetables have you got

i’d like some

i’d like some asparagus

green beans

mushrooms

carrots

onions

red cabbage

lettuce

spinach

rice

peas

tomatoes

green salad

potatoes

nothing more thanks

just a small portion please

have you any ice cream

fruit salad

fresh fruit

cheese

what would you like to drink

i’ll have a beer please

i’ll have a whisky please

i’d like a bottle of wine

red wine

rose wine

white wine

cheers

may i have the bill please the check please

is service included

everything’s included

thank you that was a very good meal

Photo

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 13:18:49 -0400

i’ve got gremlins! and i’ve got to torch those suckers. stick em in the microwave....

Tue, 17 Jun 2008 13:16:12 -0400

i’ve got gremlins!

and i’ve got to torch those suckers. stick em in the microwave. adios.

i want to tear apart little gremlin limbs and eat them. i’m saturn. i will

be saturn. i’m testing the limits.

let them just try to ruin my christmas.

this poem showed up...it's from 2002

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 23:22:56 -0400

without form to exhibit or am i suppposed to leap horizontal on catholic 3 a.m....

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 23:22:09 -0400

without form to exhibit or am i suppposed to

leap horizontal on catholic 3 a.m. frame bed is theater

when i slay for 20 hours the fine seldom erotics

hairy descending calves to toe clusters served in tortured pieces

of interruption, elements divide as a heart—

shaped mathematical wrist swerve at the slipknots

every sweat you gave as emblem to my stony experiments

doubled over equal to other

women or entrances

the project means

i love lack of endpoint more than most of you story unravels

without form to exhibit

merely a list of pinkish colors i call your mouth

merely a seldom wedding dress i call your tongue

that grasps me as i am a nipple

that never appears on illusory stage for ovation.

_____________

sara m. larsen

2002

my tarot for today

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 17:11:30 -0400

Photo

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 17:07:59 -0400

Whirlwind: Winds of change bring new visions, opportunities. A god-send or stroke of luck. Outer...

Mon, 16 Jun 2008 17:05:54 -0400

Whirlwind: Winds of change bring new visions, opportunities. A god-send or stroke of luck. Outer turmoil concealing inner truth. Stretching your boundaries. Reaching a turning point. Unseen forces churning below the surface. A good time to honor your gods.

Photo

Fri, 13 Jun 2008 12:52:25 -0400

i'm reading

Thu, 12 Jun 2008 14:54:16 -0400

i’m reading homosexual desire by hocquenghem and i’m reading eroticism by bataille and i’m reading various printed presentations from AGGRESSION conference panelists and i’m reading excerpts from various printed presentations from AGGRESSION conference panelists (as david and i are publishing some of them in the next Try! magazine—pasted up last night!), and i’m reading the newest modern painters magazine and i’m re-reading the interview w/ bell hooks from RE-Search’s Angry Women issue and i’m unsuccessfully trying to avoid reading advertisements on the bus, and i’m reading alot of employment-work related emails, and i’m reading lots of personal and writing/publishing-related emails, and i’m reading juliana’s blog, brandon’s blog, the AGGRESSION blog, suzanne’s blog, the OPEN SPACE sfmoma blog, melissa’s blog, alli’s blog, jasper’s blog, julie’s blog and i’m reading the huffington post online, and i’m reading reality sandwich online, and i’m reading the sf bay area independent media center online, and tonight i will be reading the subtitles at the Berlin Alexanderplatz movie at sfmoma.

wrapped

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 15:19:19 -0400

i have been very wrapped up in working on Try! magazine and i have been very wrapped up in the AGGRESSION conference at SPT and i have been very wrapped up in connie visiting and i have been very wrapped up in making collage postcards and i have been very wrapped up in reading Bataille’s Eroticism and i have been very wrapped up in re-reading panelist essays/presentations from the AGGRESSION conference at SPT and i have been very wrapped up in issues of monetary paucity and i have been very wrapped up in working alot employment-wise but not being focused but working alot employment-wise nonetheless and i have been very wrapped up in wrapping myself in covers with the heat turned up high and i have been very wrapped up in all interpersonal relationships and i have been very wrapped up in thinking on connections between capitalism and eroticism / and capitalism and poetry / and eroticism and poetry / and negative capability and eroticism / and eroticism, negative capability and the pitch and tenor of my personal life and i have been very wrapped up in thinking of how to respond to jasper bernes’ presentation at the AGGRESSION conference at SPT and i have been very wrapped up in my favorite flannel scarf that diane gave me and i have been very wrapped up in happy brain chemicals because i feel happy lately and i have been very wrapped up in studying latin and GETTING IT and i have been very wrapped up in reading the homeric hymns and i have been very wrapped up in thinking of tyrone williams’ work and i have been very wrapped up in writing alot of fragments in my notebook and i have been very wrapped up in accepting them as fragments

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to send work to Try!, which comes out every 2 weeks and which i co-produce w/ david brazil: trymagazine@gmail.com

also check out the AGGRESSION conference blog to find documents, talk about what went down, or catch up on what happened: http://sptaggression.blogspot.com/

o and further...

Wed, 04 Jun 2008 15:15:00 -0400

o, and i’ve been very wrapped up in the earthworm reading series at my house and i’ve been very wrapped up in upcoming earthworm press chapbooks and i’ve been very wrapped up in wanting some lunch right now but instead needing to format a work newsletter and i’ve been very wrapped up in thinking about warren sonbert films at ATA last thursday and i’ve been very wrapped up in traditionally lined white notebook paper and wanting to typewriter type on it or make some art on it

fragment

Tue, 03 Jun 2008 12:50:00 -0400

capitalism erodes eroticism of punches me in

the face,

folksinger, anarchist utah phillips has died

Thu, 29 May 2008 15:13:00 -0400

“ ’You’ve got to give up the weapons of privilege and go into the world completely disarmed.’ ”

Video

Thu, 29 May 2008 15:02:31 -0400

helio / trope

Thu, 29 May 2008 13:58:00 -0400

is what we expect of our writing…can that be true of our lives?

i’m worried that the post below is too shallow, doesn’t go deep enough, but the question is compelling, and this is where i currently am. something is here.

radical / roots

digging, is there semina? what is it’s nature and form? what is imposed upon it?

does it stand a chance? is it in topiary? in pavement slats? in open field? the opening of the field.

i just refuse to negate these questions before they awaken. cause maybe they are heliotropes, grow by light of intellect and being embedded in black dirt.

slippage

Thu, 29 May 2008 13:01:00 -0400

what is it to EMBODY negative capability?

in poetics, in personal life, and in a broader political / civil / social / cultural context? i’m considering this, and admittedly at the very beginning of this consideration. it is a personal consideration, and it is a radical personal consideration.

is it possible to be in uncertainties, mysteries, doubts, without any irritable reaching after fact and reason beyond the poetic / artistic realm? yes, of course. but i find that while i am always looking to do this in writing and art, it’s much harder in the realm of the personal (which necessarily extends to the political / civil / social / cultural).

there is slippage

this is the kicker: it’s about constantly coming up against habits. habits come from everywhere: they come from the grooves i’ve made of my life, and those that my family has made, they come from my community…they come from the culture.

habits in what love looks like, what sex looks like, what my engagement with my worklife looks like, how i perceive issues of class and privilege. habits about what art is, what writing is — though this is thankfully, constantly challenged and honed by my reading and by the extremely vibrant and rigorous sf poetry community.

i’m very consciously challenging these habits, throwing my body against this invisible walls.

so this is the very lip of this. i have no solid thesis. i only have right now what i feel and know experientially: there is revolution in re-imagining new forms.

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from keat’s letter:

I dined with Haydon the Sunday after you left, and had a very pleasant day, I dined too (for I have been out too much lately) with Horace Smith, and met his two Brothers, with Hill and King ston, and one Du Bois. They only served to convince me, how superior humour is to wit in respect to enjoyment-These men say things which make one start, without making one feel; they are all alike; their manners are alike; they all know fashionables; they have a mannerism in their eating and drinking, in their mere handling a Decanter-They talked of Kean and his low company -Would I were with that Company instead of yours, said I to mvself! I know such like acquaintance will never do for me and yet I am going to Reynolds on Wednesday. Brown and Dilke walked with me and back from the Christmas pantomime. I had not a dispute but a disquisition with Dilke on various subjects; several things dove-tailed in my mind, and at once it struck me what quality went to form a Man of Achievement, especially in Literature, and which Shakespeare possessed so enormously - I mean Negative Capability, that is, when a man is capable of being in uncertainties, mysteries, doubts, without any irritable reaching after fact and reason-Coleridge, for instance, would let go by a fine isolated verisimilitude caught from the Penetralium of mystery, from being incapable of remaining content with half-knowledge. This pursued through volumes would perhaps take us no further than this, that with a great poet the sense of Beauty overcomes every other consideration, or rather obliterates all consideration.

Shelley’s poem is out, and there are words about its being obiected to as much as “Queen Mab” was. Poor Shelley, I think he has his Quota of good qualities, in sooth la!! Write soon to your most sincere friend and affectionate Brother

John [Keats]

AFTER ZUKOFSKY’S CATULLUS

Tue, 27 May 2008 01:18:00 -0400

that my love is love giant as light

cascades in terza rima in arthritic spinal

columns of light giant in aging seas

sons

head deep, defeated in raging hades i love as i hate

these failed systems, thunderstrucked moon a sack

of ungulate sperm shot in head on euphrates fucked

in bed with my love’s head deep in colon that to

get fucked is parenthesis i hate as i love these corsical

cartograpy, seasons undulate my love is swine is pig giant

maw as light

tears pig from bone-pig

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may 25, 2008

sara m larsen